Isn't it cute how I mapped out a whole plan for my triathlon off-season? Yeah...I am following approximately NONE of that plan right now. None at all.
At first I was at least keeping up with the running, but even that has fallen by the wayside! I had a great 5-mile run on Sunday, Sept. 7th. My next attempt at running was two days later, and I quit after 15 minutes. I just wasn't feeling it that day. I have not been able to force myself out of the bed in the morning for a run since then.
I don't really know what's going on. It could be any number of things, really.
We're back in the school year routine, which requires me to be back from my workouts in time to help get three crazy little boys dressed and out the door on time to get to school. Sometimes the little ones ride along, but most days I stay home with them while my husband drives the others. So if I don't hit the ground running the minute my alarm goes off, I pretty much miss my window in which to get a workout completed. Maybe later in the year, the kids will get better at staying on task in the morning and my help won't be needed as much, but for now this is a daily obstacle that can only be overcome by getting out of bed on time. And right now bed is winning every.single.day.
The start of a new school year is always stressful just because there is so much newness for everyone to get accustomed to, and also just so very many things to do! This year that stress has been compounded by all kinds of things going wrong -- things that I fully expected to go RIGHT, so I've been caught off guard. I expected to be incredibly BUSY this month, but I had no idea I'd be extra busy trying to solve all kinds of problems that I didn't see coming. Of course, working out would help me cope with the stress, and missing the workouts is making me feel even MORE stressed...and yet somehow I can't seem to make myself get moving. It's like I'm stuck in a spiral stress vortex that won't allow me to do the very things that could help relieve the stress. UGH!
Ever since my 5-mile run, I've been having pain in my left knee. It's in a spot where there wasn't pain previously, and it feels different than the knee pain I usually have. It's a little better this week, but it was pretty bad all last week and over the weekend. I don't know if it will be any worse when I run, but that's not stopping me from using it as a convenient excuse not to try. Maybe I do need to rest it, but I won't know if running makes it worse if I don't get out there and just see how it feels!
My head is in a weird place right now. This is probably a by-product of the stress, I think. I just don't feel motivated to work out, or do much of anything, really. I've been sad and grumpy and moody and blah, sometimes all at once! Just like with the stress, exercise could help with these feelings, and maybe clear my head a little, but I'm in too much of a funk to force myself to get out there. Blah blah blah. Blah.
So there you have it. I'm a little lost and searching for the right motivation to get moving again. I desperately NEED to get moving again. Would anyone like to come to my house and literally drag me out of bed at 5:30am tomorrow? Pretty please???